Baby's First Vacation.

This weekend, Cullen and I took off for a trip to DFW; It was for Cullen's birthday. - AND, it was Peanut's first vacation. The funnest part of the whole vacation: Secrets. We aren't out of the closet about our news yet. As people would ask the inevitable question, "So, when are you two going to have babies?" we would give one of two answers. If they asked me, they got: "Oh, maybe this time next year." OR if they asked Cullen, they got: "Man, I am holding out as long as I can!!" Later, we would grin at each other knowing our little itty bitty pint-sized secret!

I can't wait till we are out of the closet with our news. I can't wait to tell everyone about my sweet little Peanut.

I have a doctor's appointment on Friday. Cullen isn't going to this one... From what I have been told, they are going to make me pee in a cup, take my blood and ask me 500 questions about my past and future ailments. Hopefully, we will schedule our first ultrasound too!

The things you do for your baby....

All moms have said "I would do ANYTHING for my child". I found that hard to believe at times. Really....you would do ANYTHING for your child. riigghht..... Well, six weeks into pregnancy and I know the feeling. Due to some school situations, I told my Vice Principal at work that I am pregnant. She responded with - "Go get the flu shot." This could have been the worst news she could have given me. I hate shots. I hate needles. I hate the whole process. Literally, anxiety builds up inside me, I get sweaty, and I cry every time I need to get a shot. But, like a good mom, I will do anything for my child. I immediately went to the doctor, sat down and got a flu shot. Did I cry? Of course. Did I hate it? Did I sweat and wretch around like a two year-old? You bet. Have I been on my deathbed sick for two days - you got it! Was it worth it? Was it worth it to make Peanut safe from the flu?? It was worth every second of sickness, if it meant she/he was protected. Turns out it's true. Moms really will do anything for their child.

(You are welcome Peanut. Mommy loves you - so much she will get a shot.)

Peanut - Oh how you make me Pee!

I have speculated since long before I was pregnant that I would pee a lot. If you know me at all, you know that pre-pregnancy, I pee'd a lot! Now that I am pregnant ... sheesh! that is all I do! Whether I am imagining or if it is really true... I pee 4 times an hour, MINIMUM. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE!??!? Peanut, ONLY because it is for you do I manage to deal with it...but, I am not sure that I can sanely do this for 9 whole months!

Eat, Sleep, DREAM Baby -

I had my first "baby" dream last night.

I have heard from a lot of pregnancy women that they dream about their baby; they meet their baby, their baby has a gender...so I knew this was not weird. I had a dream that I was 4 or 5 months pregnant and having a hard time sleeping. I spoke with my doctor (in my dream) and he told me that I MUST not sleep on my back, only on my side ( I think that is really true - pregnant mommas shouldn't sleep on their back???). Anyway, I woke up from my dream worried I was laying on my back... at this moment I can not recall if I was or wasn't but what I am sure of, is I when I woke up I hugged my body pillow so that I couldn't roll back over! :)

Is Shock A Normal Side Effect

...so, is it normal to be in total disbelief/shock about really being pregnant?? I have take 4 pregnancy tests, (all of which confirmed - Pregnant) and I still kinda don't believe it. We are planning how to tell everyone; I want to really surprise our parents. It will be grandbaby number 3 for my parents, and grandbaby number ONE for Carol and Billy. I am so excited to share our big news with our family and friends.

Dear Peanut -
Mommy and Daddy love you very much. I ask God to watch over you, and protect you while I carry you over the next 8 months.
Love you more than you will know,
Mommy and Daddy

...And, So It Begins!

It happened. We're pregnant. I am no longer me. I am now a "we". The Mills are not a party of two. We are a party of two plus a peanut. It happened. We're pregnant.

Around mid August, Cullen and I decided we are going to throw all precaution to the wind and leave it up to God. God is a funny man, because it took us six weeks from the time we decided to throw all precautions to the wind until I found out I was "with child".

Cullen and I celebrated our two year anniversary tonight and I gave him a James Avery ring for his gift. Along with his ring, I gave him an "I love Daddy" onesie, "What to Expect When You're Expecting (for Dad's), and an invitation to join me at the hospital around May 24th!

Peanut, even though you are only the size of a poppy seed, I love you bigger than the world is big. I have prayed for you for a very long time, and I am already excited to meet you. Peanut, me and your will think about you every day until we meet you.